It’s funny to me that there is even such a thing as Internet Popularity, but there is.

It is very apparent to me that I am also not one of the cool kids on the internet, just as I was not one of the cool people in high school either.

I didn’t start out on the internet how I was in person. I was outspoken, and didn’t care. Now, I am almost as introverted online as I am in person. Communicating with people online is almost as uncomfortable for me as if I was doing it in person. If someone sends me a nice email, okay so, I can only think of like 2 of those emails, I get nervous about what I’m saying, because I’m worried they will think I’m a weirdo. Maybe because I don’t translate well. So, maybe it will sound strange to them. So, I’m wondering if  my over analyzing makes my replies sound kinde mechanical or just when I talk in general sound not as warm or something?

My personality is super sarcastic, I will act weird to make you laugh. I think I’m kinda funny. I’ve always tried to make people laugh. If I’m comfortable with you, that is how I am. Being sarcastic online doesn’t really work. For some reason, I’m not funny or witty online. I can’t act weird, because people will misunderstand me and such.

Let’s say on Flickr, you post a picture that you think is pretty good. Sometimes it is even really good. You like it, and it makes you proud & happy, and you look at it often. Your proud of the quality of the image. Then one or two people comment on it, you get maybe 25 views. You know that picture is in a lot of people’s streams, and they don’t say one word about it. People who you’ve commented on numerous times.

Then there can be one of the “popular kids”. They are pretty good photographers, some still just as much amatuers as I am, but somehow they are one of the cool people. Everybody loves them, and wants to be their friend. Then they post a picture of their shit, and it’s like everyone loves it. They “love the quality”, “the composition is amazing”, the colors are so awesome. “God, look at the shadows!” “The lines of your shit are so magnificent!” “You’ve captured pure magic!” Then they have like 80% of their pictures in explore, because there are all the popular kids commenting on the popular kids photos, just to comment so they stay popular. Like I said, it was their shit (Not literally people.), and people are commenting left and right. Even going as far as favoriting the picture.

Then it seems like this persons arrogance grows. Can you see something like that on the internet? It’s like now they think they are great or something…when really they are just starting to get things right. You might get a comment every once in awhile from a popular kid, and it will be on the shittiest picture you have.

I also don’t get people who, haven’t posted a picture in awhile, and they will come back and say”

“Sorry, I’ve been missing for awhile and haven’t been comenting! I promise I will get to your streams soon!”

I think that is so weird. Who are you apologizing to? It seems like they are full of themselves. Do you think there are that many people who give a shit that you were gone a week? Or who are sitting there wondering why you haven’t visited their stream lately?

Or people who post their page views and it’s astronomically higher then mine, and they are in awe, and feel so special that they’ve had that many page views, so much so that they do a screeen shot and post it as a picture and write this thank you, like they are famous…but you know, you’ve practically shown your poo-say hidden behind your hand and shadow to the entire internet. Everyone has seen your tits and your ass. More times then I can count. No shit, you have a lot of page views! It’s not because you are special or a ground breaker.

There are popular people I’ve added as contacts, before their popularity blew up. So, I go search for new regular people who’s pictures I like, and I’m thinking I’m far from popular land. Your digging this persons pictures. You’ve seen some that sends this zing throughout your body. It awakens your senses, and you can feel the picture. You decide to comment after seeing & favoriting a few pictures, and wouldn’t you know it. There’s popular person in the comments. They are fucking everywhere!!! I can’t get away from them.

So, I’ve pretty much stopped commenting on pictures, unless I find the picture really good, and it actually does something to me. There are times, I am in a good mood, and do the comment just to be nice. I would never favorite a picture unless it was really good and I loved it.

So, what makes someone popular on the internet? What’s the secret? Does anyone know?

Popularity goes to every area of the internet. I’ve seen examples on the car forums Jeremy goes too. It’s the same shit. My blog, it’s not popular. I’ve added my blog to so many different sites to get my blog out there…and it’s still a shitty little blog, no better then a blog that was just started a few weeks ago. I think possibly because I don’t update it regularly. Still though, I’m sure it’s because I’m not popular. I’m not one of the cool kids, and mostly I am okay with not being the cool kid. I’ve never been outspoken and throwing myself out there. I’ve always been different then most people, and I don’t really like most people, because I find them fake & self righteous.

Am, I the only one who notices this kind of thing? Actually, my brother noticed it too, and I’ve seen him on Flickr feeling the same way…and he’s actually really good, and actually gets out there on the streets and shoots people walking around.

I’m almost tempted to take off comments entirely. That way I won’t be bothered by it. I won’t check for comments, it won’t even be an issue. I’ve given up on caring about my comments on this blog. It used to bug me a long time ago, now…whatever. Don’t comment.

So, I think what I need to do, is just let it stop bugging me. I’m not going to be with the in crowd. That is because I am so not the type of person to stroke someone’s ego so they like me. I hate those people. I’m going to try to be me, and if people don’t like me, you know to bad.

Popularity: 5% [?]

I have breaking out on my face for the entire month of October. I kid you not, that every. single. day. I wake up to a new zit or one has started popping up in the evening. I am not lying at all. So, like I have every phase of a zit on my face at all times. LOL. It’s really awesome, and I just love having my face look like a 14 year old again. Actually I’m pretty positive I had a better complexion when I was 14.

After I started using Bare Minerals, my acne cleared up. Not completely but there was a little difference. then I bought some Neutrogena anti-acne face wash and moisturizer, and since then, bad skin. So, I need to switch to something else. My skin didn’t even react this bad to just regular body lotion. Crazy huh? I’m wondering if it’s the acne medicine they put in them? I think I need some more Pro-Active. That is the only thing that made them go away.

Popularity: 2% [?]

I’m not even a guy, but I would love to have one of these Prefab Garages, they are really cool looking and come in assorted sizes and styles! Oh course what came to mind for me, as soon as I saw you can have partition walls installed also was craft room! How cool would that be to get one of these 12×12 Prefab Garages build on your property, and set up shop out there. What ever your hobby is! You’d have so much room for storage, plus enough room to set up your work areas with enough space to move around. Nice!  I’ve already have one set up in my mind. Every picture I look at, I’m thinking that, that is where I would put a pottery wheel. I’d store my yarn in this area. I’d have a sewing area here and my material there. All my various tools would be here. I’d of curse have to paint the walls in there also.

Popularity: 2% [?]

So, I have to go an pick up my brother from the airport today. He’s on his way home from a month long visit with his girlfriend in Paris. I was watching his cute little dog, and well it’s time to for her to go back to her small, dark, dungeon apartment in the concrete jungle that in Los Angeles. I’m sure she’s going to be really happy to see my brother again, but I bet she’s going to miss it here. The ability to just go out the doggie door and go potty or sniff around. The other dogs to be annoyed by or have ball fetching competition’s with. Space to run around in and not dark, cramped quarters. I feel kinda sad for her that she has to go back, because I think she actually likes it here. Maybe my brother will over shadow that though. I’m sure she will be really excited to see him.

I need to go buy her some food too. My brother sent a huge bag and it’s gone. It’s been gone actually. Apparently her food tasted like the best food ever to my dogs. It was like candy they couldn’t stop eatting. So, I gotta go buy a little bag. I’ve had to replace her collar and leash so far, because my dog decided we were gone much to long, and we would be punished by her chewing the leash and collar into 2 pieces.

I’ve come to the conclusion though that dogs don’t miss their humans. Well maybe they do if they are lost or something, but if there are other people around who are nice and loving, I don’t think they think about them at all.You know they remember though, the second they see you.

Popularity: 3% [?]

So, who is into shopping on Black Friday? To be honest, I have never, ever gotten up early and went shopping on Black Friday. I’ve never went Christmas shopping anytime before the 15th of December. This would have to do with the fact that I am poor, and don’t have extra money to just throw around whenever I want. Oh, of course I’ve looked at black friday ads, and I’ve thought about going to get a couple items, that I could save lots of money on, but my other problem is waking up. I have a hard enough time waking up when I have to or had to like when I had a job. So, the idea of waking up when it’s still dark outside to go deal with lots of people, just sounds like a really, really bad nightmare. Which could easily set my mood for the day or week. So, I found this sweet gem of a website! One that let’s me participate in Black Friday, without the hassle of leaving home!!! I’m totally excited, because I am trying to PayPerPost a lot to make money for Christmas. I don’t want to stress out about it this year. Now, I see that I can shop online and get Black Friday Deals! I for sure will be checking out Target’s Deals, because I do a lot of my shopping for the kids there anyway.

Popularity: 3% [?]

I need someone to come over and kick my ass into gear! I so want a Starbucks, and I need it like in the next hour or else it will be to late. I don’t like the cold coffee drink for some odd reason, so I can only drink Starbucks when it is cool outside.

Plus, a couple weeks ago, I was getting the worst coffees EVER! They were super duper bitter and seriously undrinkable. So, I wrote into Starbucks about it, and they sent me 2 vouchers things that basically say “Hi! I’m a complainer! I wrote into Starbucks and bitched about my experience and they sent me this here coupon!” No, it literally points out that you had a bad experience. I suppose it’s possibly a good thing thugh, because maybe they will make my coffee right this time.

Good thing they sent me 2, because I wasted about $8 and my time going to Starbucks for nothing. Well actually to take a sip of the disgusting coffee, make a face, and pour it out.

Popularity: 2% [?]

I just saw that over at Merit Capital Advance that they have a small business cash advance. But it works differently then other small business cash advance programs. If you’ve been in business for a year, and have been accepting credit card payments for 3 months then your pretty much good. They don’t base it on your own personal credit score either. It is based on how much credit card transactions your small business processes in a month! Plus you don’t have to pay it back until you get paid!!! So, basically you can get a cash advance, and buy some new equipment, spruce up your store to get more business and pay it back as you make money! Sounds like a good deal to me!

Popularity: 1% [?]

I really need to get stuff done around the house. Unfortunately, when I clean and the house looks good…within a few hours it’s messy again. Which is ridiculous when you think about it. There are 2 adults and an almost 11 year old and 7 year old. Yet they are all slobs!!! Every one of them! I am a slob too, but I’m the one who picks up after myself. If I want to leave a bowl on the counter unrinsed, I feel that I can because I am going to do the dishes. My kids are such piglets too. They eat fast food, and they will literally get up and leave the trash on the table with food dripped on the table. I’ve been getting on them about that lately though.

Anyway, this house is older, and it’s in poor shape for the most part. It really needs some major work done to it. So while it was SUPER windy here the past few day, dust blew in through windows and sliders. There is a layer on the back of the couch, and on every surface. I hate this house for that reason.

Jeremy has been out of clean boxers for oh like 4 days now. Yet, I went to do some yesterday, and decided against it. This is why…Jeremy takes off his clothes and leaves them on the floor. He’ll take off boxers and throw them on the floor or behind the bathroom door. Then his clothes will get shoved into corners under the bed and behind the door, and I am not about to go on a scavenger hunt for dirty underwear. So, I told him last night, that if he wants clean clothes, I suggest he put all his clothes in a pile in one spot…otherwise I’m not doing them anymore. He’s worse then the kids are about being a pig…and then he will get on their case about their clothes all over the bathroom. Hey, at least they are in one area.

So, I need to go pic up all the crap the dogs have dragged all over the house, and dust, sweep and vacuum. Get diner prepared for the oven, and start sewing Sheldyn’s costume! I am almost done, and I really want to sew, but sitting down and sewing in filth just doesn’t work for me.

Popularity: 3% [?]

i wish I could go to Park West Art Gallery and attend one of their auctions! Oh to have enough money to afford real art, by real artists! I love to look at paintings, and I say all the time, how I would like to have some art hanging on our walls. I tend to like darker paintings. Actually I tend to like dark anything. I always have. Happy & light is not me at all. I see they have some Salvador Dali, and I like his paintings. There is a nice Pablo Picasso painting that I like also.

Popularity: 1% [?]

I write about the same stuff all the time. How boring! Who wants to hear about me freaking out about my health all the time? I’ve finally stopped thinking constantly that I’m going down. Well until I start freaking out about it again…and until I get those damn results for that stupid AIDS test, I didn’t want. I’m still stressing about that one though…because you never know. Plus, I think that would possibly be the worst way to die. I mean there is no hope, except that you’ll live longer. Your whole life would change. Your relationship would change. I made some really, really, really stupid choices when I was single. I was really out of control, and did things that truly aren’t who I am. You know how people say they don’t regret anything, because it made them who they are? Well I regret ever having unprotected sex. I just hope I won’t have to pay for those ridiculous mistakes.

There was this time when I first met Jeremy in person. I came with my ex-SIL, and well she ditched me here. She took off and left me…because I’m not sure why. Jeremy had to drive me back to her house to pick up my car the next day. I remember she called me on my way home, and she was screaming at me how she hopes I die of AIDS. I wasn’t sure why exactly she would say such horrible things to me, as I didn’t do anything to warrant such behavior. I didn’t deserve it…but now I hope that it doesn’t come true. Don’t askme how I forgave her after that one. I did though.

Anyway, enough with that. I won’t bring it up again until I come to say I am negative or positive. Well, if I’m positive, I probably will be in a deep dark depression for a very long time, so I doubt I’ll run here to announce. I probably won’t tell anyone.

Popularity: 2% [?]