I swear I am plannng on updating this thing here in the near future! With Christmas thing were a little busy over here, as is the case with everyone at this time of year. So I do plan on updating after the kids go back to school. I need to start up pay per posting again also, because my laptop will not power on anymore and I need a new one! So that should drive me to post more.

If so, then I suggest you read this and watch this video. Stop being a sheep, stop being blinded by your everyday activities. Do something about this. If American’s don’t stand up for the things they value, such as your FREEDOM, they will be taken away. Our freedom is being taken away bit by bit right this minute. I’m serious here people. It took me less then 10 minutes to look up my Senator’s and email them. That’s very little time to protect your freedom and your children’s freedom. Stand up and do something. This Bill must be stopped!!!

The end of Free Speech in America has arrived at our doorstep. It’s a new law called the Violent Radicalization and Homegrown Terrorism Prevention Act, and it is worded in a clever way that could allow the U.S. government to arrest and incarcerate any individual who speaks out against the Bush Administration, the war on Iraq, the Department of Homeland Security or any government agency (including the FDA). The law has already passed the House on a traitorous vote of 405 to 6, and it is now being considered in the Senate where a vote is imminent. All over the internet, intelligent people who care about freedom are speaking out against this extremely dangerous law: Philip Giraldi at the Huffington Post, Declan McCullagh at CNET’s News.com, Kathryn Smith at OpEdNews.com, and of course Alex Jones at PrisonPlanet.com

This bill is the beginning of the end of Free Speech in America. If it passes, all the information sources you know and trust could be shut down and their authors imprisoned. NewsTarget could be taken offline and I could be arrested as a “terrorist.” Jeff Rense at www.Rense.com could be labeled a “terrorist” and arrested. Byron Richards, Len Horowitz, Paul Craig Roberts, Greg Palast, Ron Paul and even Al Gore could all be arrested, silenced and incarcerated. This is not an exaggeration. It is a literal reading of the law, which you can check yourself here:

thomas.loc.gov/home/gpoxmlc110/h1955_rfs.xml

The bill states:

‘…ideologically based violence’ means the use, planned use, or threatened use of force or violence by a group or individual to promote the group or individual’s political, religious, or social beliefs…

Note that this means the “planned use of force to promote a political or social belief” would be considered an act of terrorism. This all hinges on the definition of “force,” of course. Based on the loose use of logic in Washington these days, and the slippery interpretation of the meaning of words, “force” could mean:

• A grassroots campaign to barrage Congress with faxes
• A non-violent street protest
• A letter-writing campaign that deluges the Senate with too much mail
• A sit-in protest that blocks access to a business or organization
• A grassroots e-mail campaign that overloads the e-mail servers of any government department or agency

You get the idea. “Force” could be defined as practically anything. And since the “planned use of force” would be considered a criminal act of terrorism, anyone who simply thinks about a grassroots action campaign would be engaged in terrorist acts.

If you stopped someone on the street and handed them a Bible, for example, this could be considered an act of terrorism (”…use of force to promote the individual’s religious beliefs…”)

If you sent a barrage of angry letters to Washington about global warming and the destruction of the environment by the U.S. military, this could also be considered an act of terrorism (”…to promote the individual’s political beliefs…”)

If you believe in same-sex marriage and you wrote a letter threatning a sit-in protest in front of your state’s capitol building, this could also be considered an act of terrorism, even if you never carried it out! (”…planned use of force to promote a social belief…”)

The United States is on the fast track to fascism, and the Congress is working right alongside this nation’s traitorous leaders to criminalize any thoughts, words or speeches that disagree with current government policies regarding war, terrorism, domestic surveillance and civil liberties. Simply speaking out against the war on Iraq could soon be labeled a crime. Merely thinking thoughts against the war on Iraq could be considered a criminal act.

It is designed to squash all opposition to the State’s ongoing march towards blatant fascism, where secret police and secret prisons dominate the law enforcement landscape, stripping U.S. citizens of all civil liberties and Constitutional protections.

Thoughtcrimes are about to become a reality in the United States of America, and Congress is pushing this through as quickly as possible so that each individual member of Congress can claim that he or she is “against terrorism.” But this bill doesn’t merely target terrorism: It targets anyone who speaks or even thinks thoughts against the U.S. federal government.

With this bill, the U.S. government is officially labeling the People of the United States as criminals. It is drawing a line in the sand and stating that from now on, it’s the Government vs. the People.

If we don’t stop this bill from becoming law, we are lost as a nation.

There is no turning back from tyranny once the government turns its own citizens into criminals, enforcing only the thoughts, ideas, words and speeches that it approves or tolerates. Everything is at stake here!

Take action now, or lose your freedoms foreverIf you live in the U.S., it is urgent that you call your senators right now and voice your strong opposition against this extremely dangerous law.

Here are the phone numbers for the U.S. Senate switchboard:

• 1-877-851-6437
• 1-800-833-6354
• 1-888-355-3588
• 1-866-220-0044
• 1-866-808-0065
• 1-877-762-8762
• 1-866-340-9281
• 1-800-862-5530

How to do this:

1. Make sure you know the names of your Senators.
2. Call the U.S. Senate switchboard using one of the numbers above.
3. Ask to speak to the offices of your Senators.
4. Tell them you are strongly opposed to S. 1959, the Violent Radicalization and Homegrown Terrorism Prevention Act
5. Ask for their fax number.
6. Follow up your phone call with a written, signed letter that you fax to your Senators.

Stopping this bill from becoming law is the single most important thing all Americans can do right now. If this becomes law, all free speech about health freedom, the crimes of the FDA, the crimes of the Bush Administration, America’s role in global warming and any other topics could all be criminalized. YOU could be labeled a terrorist, kidnapped by government thugs, taken from your home, thrown in a secret prison, denied access to legal representation, denied due process and essentially “disappeared” into a system of such corruption and evil that it now begins to blatantly mirror Nazi Germany.

Think it couldn’t happen here? It’s happening right now! This is exactly how it happened in Nazi Germany. First, burn the Reichstag and blame it on the “enemy.” Pass new police state laws. Disarm the people. Spread fear. Erect secret prisons and secret police. Call anyone who disagrees with you a “traitor.” Control the mainstream media. Sound familiar? This is all happening right now in the United States of Amerika, and if we don’t work to stop it, this nation will rapidly devolve into a fascist police state where no one is truly free.

We are but a few small steps away from it right now. All it would take is one dirty bomb in a major U.S. city. Bush would declare Martial Law and take over the National Guard. Troops on the streets. Anyone who writes a blog against the government would be arrested. Authors of “alternative” books would be kidnapped and have their books burned on the street. It could all happen at the stroke of a pen. The infrastructure for tyranny is in place right now, just waiting to be invoked.

Our best weapons: Non-violent protest and speaking the truthHow can we fight back against this onslaught of tyranny? We must use what remaining free speech freedoms we have right now to alert our fellow citizens to what’s happening. We must rise up and tell the truth while urging our representatives in Washington to resist the temptation to vote for more “anti-terrorism” legislation that only works to enslave the American people.
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I just dowloaded Matchbox 20’s first album. I had it, but it got super scratched up, and some Sublime. That got scratched up too. After ruining sooooo many CD’s, I started takig care of the few I had left.

Anyway, right now I’m listening to Matchbox 20. I used to be obsessed with them. I loooved them. I looooved Rob Thomas. I had such a crush on him. I even went and saw them once. Listening to it, takes me back to like 1996/1997. Living in my old apartment with baby Chase, being a new stay at home Mom. We were so poor and so young…but made ends meet. I actually remember it as being a happy time in my life. Adjusting to motherhood was a very easy adjustment for me. I was a good Mommy, and I remember taking lots of pictures of Chase. I’d pose him with all his stuffed animals or Doddie our Basset Hound, get him all dressed up. I used to be so on top of cleaning. The apartment was pretty much spotless with all our mismatched hand-me-down furniture. We only had one car, so we were pretty much stuck at home all day. My sister would walk home from Jr. High to our house to hang out with us. Those were the days of going grocery shopping, and checking out only to find out ATM card was rejected. It would be so embarrasing. So, they would wheel our cart into the back refridgerator and save it for us until the next day when I could borrow some money from my Mom until we got money to pay her back. That happened about 3 times. Or writing a check, hoping to God it didn’t go through until we had the money in the bank. Those were the days of a young couple just starting out.

Then I was listening to Sublime. That takes me back to a crazy time in my life. It was polar opposite of the time I listened to Matchbox 20. I left my husband, we were still living together, and I was on a path of complete selfishness and a bit of destruction. I was drinking a lot, and every single day I was drunk. I went through the motions of being a Mom, but I really wasn’t there. I made sure I was home, even though my day was pretty much spent out on my patio chain smoking, and writing in my journal. I didn’t leave at night until my kids were in bed sleeping…even though I was probably drinking since 5 p.m. I know the drinking was a way to cover up any sort of feeling I had, to get through the whole experience. I remember feeling dead inside. There was no emotion from me at all. I didn’t cry, I didn’t feel bad for anything I was doing. Which was not me. I was a very emotional person, and to go from feeling to much to nothing at all, was odd. I remember thinking how weird it was, to watch the ex break down crying, and pleading with me to stay with him, and it did nothing to me. I didn’t feel sad, I didn’t feel happy. I literally felt nothing. I think it was what I had to do to be able to get out of the marriage. I had to kill every feeling, and just go on autopilot. Although, I obviously was in pain. It was apparent by my actions. So, drowning them in a drunken haze was the answer. All the times, I was trashed and drove home. I am so lucky I never killed myself or someone else. So, so lucky. So, Sublime takes me back to a pretty sad time in my life. A time where it was filled with freedom, lonliness, sadness, confusion, and uncertainty. Even though at the time, I was thinking I was having a great time. I look back and cringe on the things I did. Seriously, I cringe!!! You know how people say they don’t regret things in their past, because it makes them who they are? Well, I regret numerous things I did, that did nothing to make me who I am today. I did things that I would never do with a clear mind. Things that aren’t even me or in my character. God, it makes me sick, and I would take it all back if I could. I would have approached the whole situation in such a different way. Although, I think the way I was and acted lead me to Jeremy. It really was a shot in the dark to find him, and we never, ever would have met if I wasn’t who I was then. So, that is the only good thing that came out of it.

Funny, now I don’t drink at all! I had a few beers on Thanksgiving, and before that on my Birthday.

This week was Parent/Teacher Conference at the kids school. Sheldyn’s was first, and it lasted an entire 5 minutes. Sheldyn got all 3’s (meets standards) and two 2’s, but the teacher said they just started learning that last week…so all the kids got that. She said she is a pleasure to have in class, she helps other students when they need help, she’s a great listener. She basically told me everything a parent wants to hear about their kid.

Chase’s conference was today. Chuck came down for it, because he knew this one was going to be serious. I was dreading going, but I was still holding out that he would surprise us, and be doing fine. After all, he’s been doing his homework, and I am pretty sure he was turning it all in. The conference went how every other conference has gone since Kindergarten. Different teacher, same comment I hear or read on every reporting period.

 ”Chase is SO smart! He just doesn’t apply himself. If he would put out some effort, he could be getting mostly A’s.”

His teacher said how he doesn’t do the weekly writing assignments. It’s a worksheet & a small story handed out on Monday. Then he has to write about it. She gives them 15 minutes daily to work on it, and they are welcome to take it home with them. I asked what Chase does when all the other kids are working on theirs, and she said he sharpens his pencil, plays with his pencil or stares off into space. The frustrating thing about that is Chase is a fantastic write! He is SO creative, and there are times at home where he writes mini books complete with illustrations just for fun. Then he doesn’t write at school. I don’t understand it.

His grades were SO bad.

• Reading- D-
• Writing & Grammar- F
• Speaking & Listening- D
• Math- C-
• History-F
• Science- B+

In this situation, I really don’t know what to do. I don’t think grounding him & being mad at him is going to make him do anything different. Actually, I am positive about that. So, we talked to him about it, and explained to him things have to change. He’s going to go to Homework club every Monday when his teacher is there helping the kids. Then on Tuesday & Wednesday he’s going to stay after school in his classroom with his teacher and other students and do homework.

She said she gives them extra credit all the time. She gives them 6 options and they can pick one, and it will raise their grade and entire grade. Chase hasn’t partaken in that, obviously. He will now though.

Anyway, I’m seriously considering going and sitting in his class a maybe a few times. Maybe that will 1) Keep him on the ball in class & get him in a habit. 2) Embarrass him enough to where he does his work, so I don’t ever come in again. Knowing Chase though, I don’t think he’d be embarrassed with me there. I think he might like it. Which could be good too.

Sooo…I am going to have to really put out a major effort of being throughly involved. I’m involved, don’t get me wrong, but I rely on him a lot to do what he’s supposed to. I trust him, and I really want to be able to take his word for it…but I guess, I’m going to have to make him earn that now.

I might offer him $5 for every “A” he gets. He & Sheldyn have been into saving any money they receive. He’s got close to $200, so maybe that will be some more motivation.

It was rainy and cold all day today! I was in heaven! I really don’t know why I love the rain and gloomy weather so much, but I do. It makes me happy, and I get all kinds of bummed out when the sun comes out. I’m so strange. So, I went to get the kids from school, and it was pouring. I have no windshield wipers. Ha! Luckily the school is super close. I need to get some of that Rain-X.

I know I wanted cold weather, and have been looking for it since summer. However, I realize I don’t dig the cold at night. Well I don’t mind if I’m home, but if I have to go out in it, I get so cold. I am grateful though that I don’t work at the last job I was at. They used to have the A/C on in the winter when it was super cold outside. The mornings were in the 40’s last year, and the A/C would be going. They wouldn’t even turn it off during the day. Then they took the space heaters away, because someone left one on one night. So, I would literally have to wear layers. Most days I’d where a shirt with a hoodie, and then a sweatshirt on over it, zipped up. I contemplated bringing in gloves, and a little blanket to throw over my legs. It was that cold inside. Anyway, glad they fired my butt!