Over the weekend, Jeremy went and helped his Dad move some furniture from his condo to his new home. I guess going through some stuff, Jeremy saw his Dad’s Green Sheriff jacket, and his blue windbreaker with Sheriff on the back, and his name embroidered on the front. So, he asked if he could have them, and his Dad said yes. So, he’s got two copper jackets. They are pretty cool! Sheldyn was cracking up yesterday when she saw them, running arund saying how Jeremy was a cop! Then laughing really hard. Kids are so silly! All Jeremy needs now is some BDU Pants and he’s set! LOL!

I am really looking forward to summer vacation! The not having to get up early every morning and make lunches, and rush around yelling at the kids to hurry up. Can’t wait. However, I’m nervous as always about sitting here all day with the kids. chase has a tendency to want to sit inside all day long playing video games, which isn’t cool with me. Sheldyn likes playing outside as long as there are neighbor kids to play with.

I decided though that I was going to enroll Sheldyn in Gymnastics over the summer, and Chase is going to take some guitar lessons. Something to do to break up the week a little, and have fun with. I really wish Chase would go take some sort of acting class though. I swear he acts all the time. Everything is exaggerated or he adds onto it. He’s a natural. Ha! I know Shelydn is really excited. Chase, eh, he doesn’t really show much excitement for anything unless it’s a video game or something.

Okay, so cupcakes are one of those things that I absolutely loooove! I’m not even a big cake fan, but there is something about a cupcake that makes me capable of doing some major damage and eating many of them. On top of the deliciousness of a cupcake, another thing that I absolutely adore about them, is making and decorating them. It’s so much more fun to decorate cupcakes then it is cakes for me. I’m not sure what it is about theses little cupcakes that makes me feel happy, but they do. I actually was thinking about baking some today also! It’s almost a crafty thing for me to do. I get to bake, then decorate, then take pictures, and then the best part…eat them! Mmmm! I hate that i can’t send the kids to school though with a cupcake in their lunches…because you know how that will turn out? Into a squashed mess! Well, I have found a solution! I found these cupcake holders! They are perfect for something along those lines! I love them! The kids would appreciate them also! go check out their website, as they have a lot of really awesome gift ideas!

God, I am having such issues with this freaking blog!

First, off I cannot get coffee cup FTP to connect to it. I emailed Yahoo, and they said it’s working fine, but still I can’t get it to work. So, therefore I cannot get a new theme going, except for old ones, and half of those don’t work or never have.

Then every time I post a video, it fucks up my whole blog where things aren’t in the tables they are supposed to be in, and are all over the place. Or if it doesn’t mess with the layout of everything the video doesn’t show up…just a black box, like the one below. Every video I’ve ever posted just showed up by accident, and I have no idea how it showed up.

The spacing when I type things out is all wonky. I’m not sure if it is wordpress, yahoo or both. It make sit such a drag to even come here, so when I do feel the urge, it pisses me off.

I’m thinking I need to go look elsewhere for my blog, except I am SO used to just using Yahoo. I don’t know why, maybe because I’ve been here for like 6 years. Plus, it sets wordpress all up for me and stuff. I don’t know how to do that shit on my own.
So, where do you do all your webpage stuff at? Is it easy? I’m seriously stupid when it comes to that kind of stuff, and I need easy if not really easy. It has to be cheap too. I only pay like $10.00 a month.

UPDATE: Figured out the problem with the video’s. Now need to figure out the FTP problem. Okay apparetnly it was coffeecup FTP that was messing me up. Filezilla works wonderfully.

Here’s a dumb little video of me doing my makeup. How I wish it were really that fast.

How I wish it were really that fast.

So, I’m not having the best morning this morning. Actually, I haven’t had a good week so far. I’ve been down more than anything this week. Feeling a bit depressed most of the time.

I thought I would get it out. Maybe it will make me feel better? Maybe not? I don’t know.

I’ve been feeling alone lately, disappointed in myself and my life, sad about it all. I know it won’t last and before I know it, I will be back to feeling normal…but it doesn’t stop the tears from falling right now.

I feel like my entire life has been wasteful and meaningless. I truly feel as if I am living to just die one day. Unfulfilled. I talk and nobody listens. My self esteem is pretty low right now. I want to curl up in a ball in bed, and just stay there.
I can’t even articulate exactly how I am feeling right now.

Yay!

I’m so excited! I just booked an appointment to get my haircut this Saturday! I found a salon on the internet that I’m going to give a shot. Let’s hope I get a good haircut. I haven’t had one in a really long time. Like years actually!

I am going to go for something like this:

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