Yesterday, I was supposed to start eating better, and exercising. Something happened though, so I didn’t go walk. Oh, I know what it was. I didn’t get to shower before I took the kids to school, or immediately when I got home because Jeremy was in there. If I don’t get int he shower first thing, my whole day will be screwed. I will sit at my computer in my jammies, until I have to take a shower and get the kids from school.

Today, I showered before I took them though, and then Jeremy and I went to Jamba Juice. I got that one you eat with a spoon, with strawberries, peanut butter, bananas, granola, and I don’t know what else. Anyway, it sucked ass. I ate a tiny bit of it, and threw the rest out. I should have just gotten the regular one I normally get. I came home and did a couple Carmen Electra work out video’s on OnDemand. One was a stripper dance thing. LOL! I was cracking up at myself, with my large round body doing these seductive moves. On one video she is on her back and brings her knees to her chest, and grabs around her knees. She’s skinny so they fit up there. I am doing this and my knees are like 12 inches form my chest, and not because I am not flexible. I am, but because I have an enormous amount of belly fat, and my fat boobs (who I affectionately refer to as pig tits..lmao!) where in the way.

I probably did about 30 minutes of exercise…but I don’t feel I gave it 100%. More like 75%.

So, I was starving my ass off this afternoon, and ate like 3 handfuls of those new Lays Cracker Crisps. Bad, but it’s not like I had a McDonald’s breakfast Jeremy originally wanted to have. Then I had a handful of microwave popcorn that I made Sheldyn when she got home.

Then that damn yogurt. I don’t even like yogurt all that much. I pretty much choke it down. So, that’s what I had today. Not much of anything good. I need to get to the store though, and pick up some healthy items to eat. I’m not intentionally trying to starve myself, but my stomach does need to shrink a bit.

I’m thinking I might go on a short walk tonight also. Nothing crazy, maybe just 15 minutes to get me into it again. I told myself if I exercise all week, that next week I can buy myself a tanning package and get tan this summer also.

As torturous as being at my brother’s work was on Saturday, it made me realize that I HAVE to lose weight, if I want to be happy at all…because I will never be happy at this weight.

Reminds me, I need to take some “before pictures” and weigh myself…and get the exact number down. I already know that I am in the 170’s. It’s the fattest I have ever been in my whole life. Fatter then when I was pregnant each time. Fatter then when I was unhappily married, and thought I was huge. Just fatter.

So, here goes!

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